Talking to the Light

This is the true story of what happened when I stepped off the traditional healing path and worked with a professional psychic medium to channel the other side to investigate and help me understand WHY my mother abused me and why she was the way she was.

The collection centers around nine channeling sessions with a professional psychic medium and includes six different spirit voices, each offering their own perspective:

1. My narcissistic mother’s spirit

2. My enabler father’s spirit

3. Jeshua ben Joseph (the original Aramaic name for Jesus, pronounced Yeshua)

4. The Divine Feminine

5. My soul council (spirit guides)

6. My soul

While this is my personal story, much of what came through from spirit speaks to experiences that many daughters of narcissistic mothers will recognize, making the insights feel relatable, validating, and often eye-opening.

Before you dive in, it’s important to be clear about what this collection is not.

This is a work of personal narrative, investigation, and spiritual inquiry. It does not offer medical definitions, clinical frameworks, professional citations, or scientific data. It is not intended to diagnose, treat, or advise on mental health, medical, legal, or psychological matters.

This collection does not teach you how to identify narcissistic behavior, set boundaries, go no contact, manage abusive relationships, or make decisions about family dynamics. Those choices are deeply personal and best made with appropriate professional support.

It does not promise confessions, apologies, reconciliation, or closure from an abuser or from anyone else.

This is not a substitute for therapy, trauma treatment, or mental health care. If the material brings up distress or feels overwhelming, I encourage you to seek support from a licensed professional.

This collection is also not a directive to love, accept, excuse, understand, or forgive an abusive parent. It does not promote effortless forgiveness or reconciliation.

Finally, this work stays focused on the story at hand. It does not engage in whataboutery—redirecting attention to other harms, people, or experiences. Those conversations fall outside the scope of this work.

Across 53 years, I lived through many phases of being the daughter of a covert narcissistic mother, witnessing firsthand how self-gaslighting and maternal narcissistic abuse shift as both mother and daughter age.

Over the years, I saw her abuse take many forms—from subtle manipulation to calculated, sadistic abuse—revealing just how layered and horrible maternal narcissism can be.

Her cruelty intensified over time, especially toward the end of her life. During the six months I returned to live under my parents’ roof as their caregiver when the height of the covid pandemic was in full swing, I experienced it in ways that tested every part of me...and I FAILED. I ended up fleeing their home after those six months, having witnessed my mother at her absolute worst. I am a compassionate person by nature, but I couldn’t survive it anymore. This story is in Volume 1.

Volume 1 begins with the true story of those horrible six months. The terrible things I experienced, how it threw me into a deep depression, and eventually my decision to invest $10,000 to work with a professional psychic medium for six months to get the real answers about WHY she abused me and why she was the way she was. I asked all the hard questions and got true answers to everything.

Channeling my deceased mother’s spirit along with other spirits revealed even deeper layers behind what I lived. This perspective combines my lived experience of 58 years with insights most daughters never get to see.

This is a rare lens into maternal narcissism.

Talking to the Light is built around rare, beyond-the-grave conversations about maternal narcissistic abuse that most people never get to witness, let alone read.

It goes beyond simply naming maternal narcissistic abuse. It answers WHY.

I am not a therapist and I don’t tell anyone how to heal.

I share lived experience of 58 years and rare perspectives from the other side.

At its core, this collection is about understanding the real WHY.

This collection is for adult daughters of narcissistic mothers who are searching for answers beyond those they received through traditional healing paths and who are open to psychic mediumship and communication with spirit from the other side.

While this collection is rooted in my lived experience as a daughter of a narcissistic mother, some of the insights that came through these channeling sessions may also resonate with:

• Adults who grew up with a narcissistic father

• Adult sons raised by a narcissistic parent

• Those closely connected to a narcissist and seeking deeper understanding

That said, this is not presented or written as a relationship guide or recovery manual for spouses or partners. Any resonance outside the mother–daughter dynamic, which is where my experience lives, is individual and interpretive.

This collection may also be meaningful for professionals who support adult daughters of narcissistic mothers and are interested in rare, experiential insight into the internal world of narcissism as revealed through spirit communication.

This collection is told in my own voice (she/her) and from my personal experience. If you resonate with this work, no matter how you identify, please know you are welcome here. Healing is universal and your presence is honored.

At the heart of the collection are nine fully transcribed (by me), 45-60 minute channeling sessions conducted by a professional psychic medium featuring six distinct spiritual voices, each offering a different point of view.

A set of appendices with some of my post-healing, present day insights concludes every volume.

Volume 1: Where the answers began

• 1 prologue introducing 53 years of gaslighting myself about the abuse and who my mother really was, the year the truth whispered then screamed, and the harrowing six months I lived under my parents’ roof as a caregiver.

• 1 interlude explaining the panic and chaotic aftermath of my narcissistic mother’s death.

• 1 short explanation of why I needed more than therapy.

• 3 emotionally challenging channeling sessions with my covert narcissistic mother’s spirit.

• 1 channeling session with my enabler father’s spirit.

• Appendix 1.1: Except transcript from recorded October 2020 incident with my mother when my awareness of her true nature begins to form.

• Appendix 1.2: My interpretations of her environmental triggers and emotional ecosystem during her final year of life.

• Appendix 1.3: Using personal power.

Volume 2: Where the answers deepened

• 1 channeling session with Jeshua ben Joseph (the original Aramaic name for Jesus).

• 1 channeling session with the Divine Feminine.

• 1 joint channeling session with Jeshua and my mother’s spirit. YES, together!

• Appendix 2.1: What Jeshua said about forgiveness

• Appendix 2.2: Karmic cycles

Volume 3: Where the answers landed

• 1 channeling session with my soul council (spirit guides).

• 1 channeling session with my soul.

• Appendix 3.1: Worthiness in the now.

• Appendix 3.2: What it feels like to have forgiveness (note: forgiveness is NEVER pushed on the reader; this subject is included at spirit’s request).

While this is my personal story and investigation, much of what came through from spirit speaks to experiences many daughters of narcissistic mothers will recognize, making the insights relatable, validating, and often eye‑opening.

Some of the questions I asked my narcissistic mother’s spirit:

• Did you realize you were going to die when you did?

• Did you have a reflection of your life before you died?

• Now that you’re on the other side, what do you want me to know about your time on Earth as my mother?

• Do you see me differently now than you did when you were on Earth?

• How does spirit explain narcissism?

• Was it your goal during this incarnation to come to earth as a narcissistic person?

• Tell me about what you just called the ____ inside you. Did I see it as a helpless child?

• Why did you choose me as your target and not my sibling?

• Is narcissism a playbook for the other side?

Some of the questions I asked my enabler father’s spirit (my mother abused him, too):

• What was life like for you after Mom died? You had six months of living free from her abuse.

• Was Mom threatening and violent to you to the point you felt concerned for your safety or your life like I did?

• Why didn’t you divorce Mom?

• What do you want me to know about the father‘s role in surviving and protecting himself from his narcissistic wife?

• Do you have a relationship with Mom on the other side?

• Can you share with me what you’ve learned about using personal power now that you’re on the other side?

Some of the questions I asked Jeshua ben Joseph (the original Aramaic name for Jesus). He led most of this channeling session.

• What was the karma with my mother about?

• Can you share about forgiveness in a manner that would deeply touch people like me?

• Now that I’m on a journey to find my true self after abuse, what do you want me to know?

• Why do I feel so much pressure even though my mother is gone?

• What is the whole experience of being human?

• How long should it take to heal?

Some of the questions I asked the Divine Feminine:

• Please tell me about the absent father energy and the stifling mother energy.

• What is the first thing people like me who are still in the trenches of being on the receiving end of narcissistic abuse need to do?

• How do people like me come into our own power?

• What are the karmic patterns that have been meeting me over different lifetimes?

• How do we break karmic patterns?

Some of the questions I asked during the joint session with Jeshua & my mother’s spirit:

• What are some of the rapidly moving parts that are taking place as I heal from maternal narcissistic abuse?

• Will my mom incarnate soon and will she be part of my life in a loving, kind way?

• Can you talk about our soul contract?

• Does anyone come to Earth without the mission to forget they’re connected to Source/God?

Some of the questions I asked during the session with my soul council (spirit guides). They led most of this session.

• How do you communicate with me?

• Is my mom part of my soul council?

• Can you give me some insight into what’s next for me?

Some of the questions I asked during the session with my soul:

• If I still think I’m not enough, what does being enough sound like or look like? I thought I was making progress in that area. Is there any guidance?

• What are the lessons my soul is here to learn?

• What is my soul’s age?

• What is the blueprint that was created during my pre-birth planning?

• Is my soul actually seeing and experiencing the growth it wanted to?

Talking to the Light is built around rare, beyond-the-grave conversations that most people never get to witness, let alone read.

Through these nine transcribed channeling sessions, readers are offered something very unusual: direct insight from spirit into the inner world of a narcissistic mother and into the dynamics that shaped and sustained abuse across a lifetime.

Along the way, this collection may help you:

• See maternal narcissistic abuse from a different vantage point

• Gain rare, posthumous insight into the inner forces driving my mother’s sadistic narcissistic behavior

• Understand how early life experiences hardened into my mother’s destructive patterns over time

• Encounter spirit’s own language around narcissism, healing, forgiveness, and emotional pressure that challenge conventional narratives

• Receive insight from spirit on where healing can begin

• Reconnect to your own inner authority, your sense of worth, your personal power, and the knowing that you are already enough

• Feel a renewed sense of possibility for growth, clarity, and forward movement

This list names only a few ways this collection may help. The real depth lives inside the nine channeling sessions themselves.

This collection also offers a reframing of how narcissism is understood from spirit itself. This view adds depth and context without minimizing harm, responsibility, or the reality of abuse.

Understanding, as it appears in these channeling sessions, is not about excusing behavior or rewriting what happened.

This change in my understanding was a powerful turning point in reclaiming my self-worth, my personal power, and the knowing that I am enough.

What it opens for others will depend on where they are and what they’re ready to see.

A few important things to know before you buy.

This collection does not provide medical, psychological, legal, or therapeutic advice, and it is not written as an instructional guide for navigating abusive relationships or family systems.

While it explores maternal narcissistic abuse through lived experience and spirit communication, it does not minimize abuse or my experience with it in any way.

This is a collection for a mature audience. It includes sensitive and potentially triggering material, as well as occasional profanity.

This is not a collection that asks you to love, accept, or easily forgive a narcissistic mother for who she is. If that’s what you’re looking for, this won’t be the right fit.

Because of the digital and deeply personal nature of Talking to the Light, all sales are final. No refunds or exchanges are available.

Lastly, this collection is meant to be read in the order it’s presented. Skipping around may feel disjointed and dilute the experience.

This collection contains references to sensitive material, including, but not limited to:

• Narcissistic abuse

• Domestic abuse

• Complicated grief

• Childhood trauma

• Emotional manipulation

• Serious neglect

• Rape and sexual assault (mentioned, not graphically described)

• Mention of suicide, killing, and weapons

• Brief mention of animal abuse involving dogs

• Profanity

• Death, dying, and spiritual communication

• Photographs of a woman on her death bed, her face obscured

The content in Talking to the Light reflects deeply personal spiritual experiences, channeled conversations, and emotional interpretations that may feel intense.

These experiences are not presented as verified facts or universal truths. They reflect my lived experience and belief system only.

Your interpretation of the material and your emotional, psychological, or spiritual response to it are your own responsibility.

I don’t enjoy reading AI generated content.

In fact, I avoid reading anything written with that telling ChatGPT voice. I’m sure you know what I mean.

That said, here’s my AI transparency note:

• I used AI to assist with my antiquated writing. Turns out the writing I learned in 10th grade honors English back in 1983 is outdated (old Mrs. Otey would be disappointed).

• I used AI to help me through writing the sections of Talking to the Light that are based on traumatic lived experiences that were too difficult to write. I rewrote what was generated by ChatGPT into my own voice. Writing through tears is challenging, to say the least.

• The voice and story are mine and are rooted 100% in lived experience.

There are two ways to purchase:

—> INDIVIDUALLY, $37 each

This rare and groundbreaking collection can be purchased individually by volume.

Reading volume 1 is required, otherwise it will feel disjointed and dilute the experience.

Volumes 2 and 3 can later be purchased individually when the reader is ready.

—> BUNDLE OF ALL THREE VOLUMES, $111‍ [RECOMMENDED]

This complete bundle includes a free download:A spiritual booklist for healing and transformation: 3 books that impacted my healing journey. Highly, highly recommended books that had a massive and important impact on my healing journey! Book #2 is a great read after Talking to the Light Volume 2.

I invested $10,000 to work privately with a professional psychic medium who channeled these sessions for me.

The sessions in these volumes came from that sustained six-month access and real-time inquiry.

Each 45–60 minute session then had to be carefully transcribed, a process that took months per recording so nothing was missed.

After each 45-60 minute session was transcribed, I spent 2.5 years weaving the material together into a cohesive collection that guides you through the entire journey. I’ve included my knee-jerk reactions, memories for context, and present-day post-healing appendices.

Each volume is only $37, which means you’re receiving the insights from that entire experience without having to make the same monetary and time investments I did.

Due to the digital nature of these products, we do not offer refunds.